Please wait

In case you are looking for something

Or expecting something,

Please wait.

Wait patiently.

Sooner I will post up something which is outdated.

The outdated post will be entitled, "8".

This post is harder to put up 

Coz alot of thinking are required

And alot of words have to be carefully selected.

Sigh.. I'm so perfectionist.

Forgive me...

Sorry...

Stuck!

Apparently... I'm stuck with words.

Actually I'm stuck in blogging. 

Sometimes I don't know what sort of words to express out.

Maybe I should draw instead.

But not now...

Or maybe I should type it like a poem instead also.

But not now either...

See?

I'm stuck.

Called me indecisive, if you wish.

But I'm stuck.

Because I seek perfection.

That is one true weakness about me.

However, I must grow to learn to accept failures and imperfection.

After all, I am not perfect either.

I must have been hard on many people all these while.

With this in mind, I seek for your forgiveness from you all if I had acted such manner to you.

Sorry.

Sorry.

So next year, I shall be better in accepting weaknesses.

It will be one of my new year resolution.

:)

How To Raise A Friend Up?

It takes patience in everything for something good to happen. It is not easy at all when obstacles seems so hard to cross over. Like any soldier who underwent heavy trainings, they have to pull their whole limbs with sheer willpower and determination to make it through... and raising a friend who is down is also no easy task.

When I was still a boy, I hated Maths so much. Hated to point that I dared to fail it, and of course a long cane is awaiting there for me. Ouch! Those pains were so painful but still bearable because of my stubborness. Both of my parents used to quiz me about Maths and if I can't able to answer it correctly, their nerves sure get fire. It's just ME - I can't seems to comprehend those equations, even a simple fraction! So Maths is my biggest obstacle during my early schooling days. 

On that year in 1996, it was the year that everyone have to sit for a national exam. And I remember I kept telling myself so negatively that I am not going to make it. Maths is so so hard. My brain just can't proccess it. Numbers. Crunching numbers really scared me off. Multiplication. Division. Algebra. All of these, my mind just can't hold it. Because of my weakness in this subject, my parents spent alot of their hard earn money on tuitions. Still, it doesn't help at all. And in the end, I got more scolding from my teacher. Sigh... I became very discouraged and such an embarassement to others and to myself.

One day as the months approaching to the end of the year, my good old friend who was much a senior offered a free tuition to me. In return, he will get to come to my house and of course, get a nice dinner from my mom's cooking. I remembered those days we prayed to God first before the beginning of each lesson. He kept thanking God at the end of every lesson that after teaching me. Never once he scolded me. Never once he sneered at me. Never once his face showed frustration. Never once he gritted his teeth. Never once. All he gave me is his patience, his encouragement and his love. My confidence grew from there. He showed me how to do real Maths. He gave me tips on how to read the questions properly and to answer it smartly. In the end, he ignites my mind. A small little spark started from there and my mind went wild like a big fire. Do you know how difficult it is to start a fire with a small spark? I tell you, it takes sheer patience and determination. Finally, I scored a high distinction in my Maths for the first time in my entire life! My score was exceptional - 98% (hey, I'm not boasting, ok?)

So how did I overcome it? No... it's not me, actually. It was my dear old good friend. He is my buddy. He was the one who believe in me that I can do it. He was the one who put faith in me that I can cross over this obstacle. He was the one who gave me strength. He was the one who gather other people around me and gave me further supports. And he was the one who kept praying and thanking to God to help me to make it through. God has intended for him to be in my life. God is the mastermind of everything for you and I, your life and my life, everything under the sun.

So... how to raise a friend up? You will need another friend. Friend who offered his/her heart and a listening ear. Friend who offered his/her prayers and keep thanking God that the fallen one will rise up again. Friend who will love despite the odds. And ultimately, a friend who believes and be there for you in whatever circumstances, even have to be persistent!

“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!” Ecclesiastes 4:8-10

Massive War

Hardly can talk excitedly in the midweek.

Hardly can talk to the group when meeting with all the brothers.

Hardly can catch breathe last night.

Water and toilet accompanied me for the whole night and I didn't manage to catch a wink.

SMSed to my manager and project leader.

But I got more replys from my manager, who kept asking how am I.

I know he desperately need me to work. But how to work properly when I am so exhausted, lest I can't even talk much now?

The mucuos is terrible... 

Viruses and white blood cells is having a massive war.

May the white blood cells win, otherwise better be fast!

Nose also very stuffy and couldn't breathe that so well.

Alas, since I am so sick today

I better make full use of the day to rest

And to prepare few things in mind for the upcoming events.

Until then... I  better make a move first

To say 'hello' to the doctor...

What's up with you?

Sudah... maafkan aku... segala salahku 

Dan bila kau tetap bisu ungkapkan salahmu 

Dan aku... sifatku, dan aku khilafku... 

Dan aku... cintaku, dan aku rinduku... 

Sudah... lupakan semua... segala berubah 

Dan kita terlupa... dan kita terluka 

Dan aku... sifatku, dan aku khilafku... 

Dan aku... cintaku, dan aku rinduku... 

Reff : 

Kutanya malam... dapatkah kau lihatnya 

Perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan 

Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah 

Ada apa denganmu... 

Oh hanya malam... 

Dapat meleburkan segala rasa 

Yang tak terungkapkan 

Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah 

Ada apa denganmu... 

By: Peter Pan

Comments

Just wanna share my thought for today...

Lately I realised that my blog received not much of comments. I actually love to read comments from you guys. I love the feedbacks, so at least I know that you have put the effort to read my post.

To be honest, comments really do boost me up to write up more posts in my blog. It is always encouraging to know that there are people actually reading and reflecting on what is mentioned in the blog. It is fun to see how people respond also and you might get to see other's perspective in the way how they look at life :)

OK lah... enough of my rambling. I wanna sleep now. I haven't been sleeping much lately. I can now relate better to those who are sleep deprived now. Take care, and goodnight...

First Day in Panasonic!

Wow... 

I finally landed in my first ever multi-national company. I have always dream of working in one big big company. And so amazingly, I got it! So, is it by my effort? No... not really. Only part of it. But first of all, give thanks and all glory to God for blessing me and making this dream comes true. And not to forget to extend my thanks to Grace for her untiring time for arranging me to get interview in Panasonic and even willing to fetch George and me there :)

Guess what? This morning I woke up very late for my first day of working!!! So late that I have to take a cab that costs me RM50 to get to Cyberjaya :( the moment I paid up the fare, I felt truly foolish at myself. Well... this is the consequences for sleeping late and waking up late... Ah, so regretted!

Anyways, I was greeted by few Panasonic geeks and they made my day better :) Most of them were shy to approach me. So I decide to make the initial approach to walk around and introduce myself and had a short talk with them. Malaysian Chinese, Vietnamese, Indian, Pakistani, Malays, even mixed bloods... wow... memang multi-national company :D

Afterward, I was introduced to a girl that almost look like Sun Yan Zi! In my heart, I almost wanted to call up Je Wei and told him that I met Sun Yan Zi :P HEHEHE! She's so nice and started to introduce to me more of her gang. And we went for lunch together :) Or am I having lunch with a superstar? HAHAHA :P

However, most of the time I am doing in the office is just reading and reading and reading. No... I'm not reading online news or articles or blogs or whatever on the Net. I have to force myself to read up their previous projects. To be honest, it's really bored for my eyes until I almost dozed off several times. Oh yea... the policy of the company is that we are not allowed to go chat online like MSN and Googletalk :( SO SAD... Actually I can access it, but I kept looking around but none of the Panasonic geeks surfing the Net. All of them doing their works very seriously. Wow... in my heart, I already felt so struggle because I am so used to have all these access in my previous jobs. So now... I am taking this new challenge to restrain myself and not be tempted to do unproductive things during office hour. So since because of that, I don't think can access my personal emails, chat, or do research, etc. I think I better apply for an Internet line at home liao... SIGH... What a pain.

All in all... working for Panasonic is a bitter sweet :) but I guess I have to learn to take up to this new challenge in working for this company. Definitely, I will always continue to glorify God in this new job so that I can impact these geeks there. Do please do me a favor to remember to pray for me ya :D 

Until then... next time another blog :)

Disappointment

Disappointment is a horrible feeling, don't you think so? It's just somewhat or somehow things don't really goes as planned. Sure, the expectations will play most of the part in the plan too. However, despite the odds... you still have to made it up whether how you wanna feel after the disappointment settled.

Well, here are some of the things that got myself pretty disappointed about. Do bear in mind, I just wanna share out only and I have no intention to blame others or make others feel bad.

1. My Bibletalk group had a day trip to Bukit Melawati at Kuala Selangor last week Thursday during the Raya holiday. There was a pretty bad planning around there with the time management and many impromtu and unforseen things happenings that dampen the time of enjoyment together. Ended up causing most of us feel rushed and didn't have a quality time together as a group.

2. This coming Saturday is an encouragement day for my Bibletalk but some members in my group spaced out and they had other plans in mind. When they found out about it, they are like shifting the blame to me and expecting me to remind them. Of course, I will still need to accept my responsibility in reminding them ahead but I wish that they will take own personal responsibilities to check the schedule and adhere to the Bibletalk planning.

3. I can't get to meet my best friend from Brunei as she is not very flexible with her schedule as she's busy attending some seminars.. I intended to show her the place around here in KL and just want to have time to catch up our friendship. She will be flying back to Brunei this evening.

4. My small LED black torchlight is lost. Borrowed to a brother but he lost it somewhere, either in his car or at his house. The torchlight is very meaningful for me and I have been using it to navigate whenever I am in the dark. I hope someone would be able to find it.

5. There are more... of course, I won't want to share so much of it here since it's very personal for me :)

Sigh.. at the end of it, someone did encouraged me to look at the bright side. She asked me what are the good things I see from the whole situation and my answers are:

1. Hmm.. well, I got few people ask me out of concern what I am disappointed about, and

2. Somehow, I need to learn to take it easy and cheer myself up despite the odds or whatever negative outcomes. It sure will make some differences :)

Well... disappointment is still part of our lives. It sure can make us all dull. But with the help of God and by making right decisions and by looking at the sunny side, it's not so bad after all :)

what friends are for?

I am listening to song called "That's what friends are for " by Dionne Warwick.

It's a good song about friendship and this is song is dedicated to you all reading this post.

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

[Chorus]
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came in loving me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
The words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

I shall treasure all friendships that I have.

Whether it is the past or the present, all of them are important to me.

lost

I lost something precious given to me.

A mini torchlight :(

I need its light, for I won't be able to see in the dark well.

It's black in color.

Small and lightweight.

It uses LED bulb.

Last location was in SS2 Brothers House.

If you find it, please inform and return to me.

Thank you very much.

七

Today is my 7th spiritual birthday!

My prayer:

God, thank you so much for walking with me for 7 good years :)

O Lord, You have brought me out from the pit of darkness and have brought forth the light of truth and salvation into my life. My God, I can never thank you enough for how much You have done in my life. O God, You are awesome, mighty, wonderful and everlasting! Amen :) 

2001 is the year that I always remember. It was that year when my life turning point here began.

So for a start, a brief history of me:

I was born and raised in Christian family.

I have attended 2 different kinds of denomination, namely the Charismatic and the Baptist.

I was baptized in a Baptist church in 1997. Prior before the baptism, I have to attend the baptism class every Sunday. And honestly speaking, I dreaded it the most because I have to wake up early in the morning to attend church.

At home, most of the night our family will have a devotion together and we will revert back to the Charismatic practices. It's quite good in a way because it livens up the atmosphere during a worship together as a family. I still enjoyed those moments with my family as we worshiped together. My dad would be playing his guitar and lead the worship..

Despite of all the hype of worshiping which can bring myself closer to God, I still find myself alone in my faith. Although every week I attended youth night or Sunday service to listen to the sermons, I still find my faith and love for God is not genuine. I merely do it to please others and to hear them praising me. Man... I was indeed very prideful! In addition, I am usually a timid person and often shy away from people. In short, I am good at masking and pretending.

However, each time the more I pretended, I felt cheated towards other but also to myself. I couldn't bring myself to think or to confess what kind of person I am. But due to my pride, I still continue to live this part of brokeness in me. Sometimes there were times I came to a realization that I needed to change and be repentant of it, but I can hardly find the will in me to do so. Perhaps I couldn't really find the right support among my friends because we were too in the same ship - always talking craps and nonsense. In short, I am not a true follower of Jesus.

After finishing my GCE 'O' Level examination, I went to Miri to do my engineering course. Campus life was like a freedom for me because it's my first time to be away from my family. I could do anything I wanted. However I still keep myself to be holy and righteous by mixing around with some Christian friends to keep myself from becoming wild. I attended the church regurlarly every Sunday but again my life have never truly find the true purpose out of it. Sin easily crept in because I was so enticed by many things there. I had a relationship with a girl and my academic got worse and worse because I am not putting concentration to study. In the end, I failed so many papers - just because of a relationship. When my parents found out about it, my dad was so furious! The next day, I was kicked out from the house and told to look for a job on my own.

Eventually I found a job, working as a computer technician in Brunei. I worked for 3 months. During the 3 months stint of working, I stayed with all my colleagues as they were all foreigners from India, Pakistan and the Phillipines. My roommates were all from India. Each time I am with them, I am reminded of my own home and often feel saddened of the thought when my dad kicked me out from the house. I vowed to God that I will repent and not to repeat the same mistake ever again. It was a painful experience in my entire life. After 3 months later, my mom came to look for me and asked whether I would like to continue my study or not. I quickly agreed and I finally came to KL.

KL is another place, far more happening than in Miri. But the painful experiences reminded me again and I really kept to myself to give my best to study hard. My grades improved significantly and I continue to do better and better. I also began to choose my friends carefully so that I won't mix around with bad companies. Friends were good to me and were helpful whenever I needed help, especially those from China (and my Mandarin improved alot too).

September finally come. And the whole world witnessed the 9/11 incident. Many were so grief stricken. And I watched helplessly as the video footage showed 2 planes crashing the tower... It was Tuesday. On that particular Sunday, I accompanied my housemate to a church located at Sungai Wang. He actually asked me to accompany him because I am a church goer and he felt insecure going there alone. It was my first time to meet Je Wei who would be my "pokok". The church service was great but the worship is not to my liking. I am still very attached to band and playing musical instrument just like any Charismatic church do. After the service over, I saw so many people came to approached my friends and I. They were all so friendly and warm. I saw how they gave a side hugs to each other and I wonder why this church is so warm in their relationship with one another. I have never really seen such kind of church before.

One of the guy asked me whether I am interested to study the Bible and I quickly agreed, since I thought that I needed some spiritual guidance as I have not going to church regurlarly as per usual. My first study with Haris and Kien Woon was great in a McDonald at Leisure Mall. I was caught by surprise that they can be so boldy open the Bible in the public. And praying and reading the Scriptures. They taught me so many things which I have never taught before. So simple. So straight to the point. So warm. And indeed so touching as I feel God is telling me, "Daniel, it's time to get back on track. Come on."

One of the study that deeply impacted me is the discipleship study. The contrast of my own so called Christian live is totally different from the biblical ways. I felt alot of stings in my heart as I saw myself clearly how I am so far off away from being called a true follower of Jesus. The expectations is high but I know it's godly and God did this in such a manner we can place our faith in Him no matter how big the challenges it will be. After the study, I got back into the habit of doing my quiet time and prayer which I have not been doing for the longest time. For the first time in my life, my heart was so opened to understand the Bible and I started to appreciate God's word more and more. Eventually I learned about sin and started to repent of my sinful nature, repenting my pretentious heart, repenting all kind of immoralities and all that can stop me from having a relationship with God. It was my first time to confess my sin to people and I really felt refreshed about it at the end. I thanked God for the brothers to speak the truth in love to me and helped me to overcome it. The cross study even furthe convicted me as I saw the pain of Jesus going through the process to die for me and everyone. I have never been taught such crucifixation. My former churches taught very lightly and so shallow and I was never able to appreciate but simply just understand it intellectually. But that time around during the cross, I was even more deeply cut and grateful for someone who died for me.

And at the end, I couldn't wait to be baptised as I saw the biblical way to baptism. I knew I was baptized in my former church in 1997 but I disregard it now because the baptism was not valid due to my unrepented heart. So the day came... no, it's the night came as I waited at the swimming pool at Vincent's condominium. I waited till almost 10pm because there is one girl was counting the cost to be baptised on the same night with me too. Finally both Esther and I got baptized on that day which I will never forget for the rest of my life when I found God and got back with Him, September 29, 2001 :)

Those memories still lingering now. But now, I am celebrating this spiritual birthday with God alone. Esther no longer around with me as she have left. Of course, there is a part in my heart that I still feel saddened when she left but I know God will bring her back one day. 

For such a longest time, I am grateful to God and to the rest of the rest of the brothers and sisters who helped me along to grow maturely. I am still happy to see my "pokok" still faithful and serving God in the church. I am happy for many close friends that I have and I will always continue to treasure all of them. God have brought me so far from where I used to be. He has changed my life. He gave me confidence. He gave me strength when I needed the most. He was with me when I am down. He gave me assurance when I am at loss. He caused me to feel other when I see others in pain too. But most importantly, God have brought me out from the pit of darkness and gave me a new life :)

In closing, I can only imagine... 

I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...

I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!

I can only imagine. I can only imagine. 

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?

Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?

Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?

I can only imagine! I can only imagine! 

I can only imagine, when that day comes, when I find myself standing in the Son!

I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship You!

I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

How To Gain Weight?

Losing weight is what most people trying to achieve. It takes great effort to do it.
Gaining weight will be the opposite? No.... definitely not!
It takes great effort to put on weight as well :)

So today if you think you are losing weight too much, it's time to put on some back before other people see a walking skeleton :P
So i'm going to share some few tips on how to gain back your weight!

1. Diet is a number one thing. Diet will determine the shape and size of our body. To put on weight, you will need not to eat in excess. You simply just need to practise healthy eating habits. First, please makan your breakfast in the morning. It's very important because the food will provide you with more energy as you carry with your daily tasks. If you don't eat your breakfast, your body will end up burning the calories in your body and gradually you will start losing weight. Then have your lunch at a moderate amount so that you won't feel bloated and sleepy afterward. However if you happen to doze off to dreamy land, take heart :) Coz you will put on weight gradually. And when dinner time, try to eat it moderately as you need not to burn so much of calories. Save your tummy with some yummy snacks! Snacks taste better during the night :P But seriously, I don't encourage late night supper as it can cause adverse effect to your digestion.

2. Do exercise! Many people have wrong perception that exercise will lose weight even more. Well it is true to some extent but exercise can help to shape and tone your body. With proper diet, you can eventually gained a healthy weight.

3. Rest and sleep is very vital! Our body need to rest after all the hard day work. If you don't sleep or rest enough, your body will still keep burning more calories and fat. In addition, stress caused by a tired body can further lower your weight. A good sleep and rest constitute all the body cells to be functioned properly and work towards renewal as in repairing cells and restoring back new cells. It is advisable to sleep a minimum of 7 to 8 hours per day for adult, while more than 8 hours per day for children.

4. Take some health supplements. You will need the proper vitamins and minerals as they are the building block to give strength and health to your body. Though buying health supplement can be a costly investment, you can still opt to take more fruits and eat leaner meat. You can best stay away from unhealthy fat as it won't do any good to add the weight because it can affect your blood circulation. If you have some money to spare, do invest in reputable health supplement :)

5. Lastly, don't be shy shy to accept food from people who want to share with you. It will benefit you in getting back your weight :P

I hope you can follow thru this suggestion here in getting back your weight. After all, God did reminded us that our body must be healthy so that we can continue to glorify Him when we carry out His divine tasks. Surely, God won't want to see a living skeleton walking about - it's sure look weirdo!

Until then, happy makaning! Happy sleeping! And happy exercising!

Taxi! Taxi! Oi! Alah... Apa nih?

Thank God for cabs aka taxis! Nowsdays, you can find cabs easily around KL city. Sometimes they just whizz past you. Sometimes they would stop once you halt our your hands, and sometime lifting a finger will do the trick.

If it not for these taxi man, I wouldn't be able to get around for my work, meeting clients, meeting appointments, evangelisms and going to church. Otherwise, I will be late too...

However the most amusing thing about taxi is always the driver. You meet all kinds of driver. Here are the list below that I can think of so far:

1. Quiet-Quiet Type: this one would drive you to your destination without talking much. Just show him the directions if the driver is unsure. For this one, you can play with your phone, fiddle with your hair, looking around, etc.
2. Grumpy Old Men: this type can be quite grumpy. But rest assured, they won't scold at you. They just scold at the traffic jams, other cars cut the queues, sudden halt when a car quiickly slow down unexpectedly. Be prepare to hear their vulgar words, though.
3. Playing politicians: Most taxi drivers are very into the current Malaysia politics. Along the way, you can hear them vent out anger and frustration about the government and political situations. You still have to be prepare to hear all sort of vulgar words too which is even more drastic than the Grumpy Old Men.
4. Rare Species: Ah... imagine, a taxi driver greets you a "Good morning"! And then along the way, you can have a nice morning chat as he drives you to office. Ah... this one i called it a Rare Species. Have I meet one? Yes, once! Not only we had a good chat, but he further entertained me with his built-in video player. You literally can watch movie in his taxi :) If you get into this kind of taxi, you are in for a treat!
5. Dumpsite: This is one I detest the most. The entire car smells of cigarettes, sweat, and other funny weird weird smell. Sometimes it can be so unbearable that I have to wind down the windows to let out the stench smell! How can this kind of taxi drivers so unhygenic? May their business rot...

In conclusion, you will never know what kind of taxi drivers you might encounter. But pray tell that you can still reach your destination safely and cheaply if possible, despite the odds; otherwise meeting the Rare Species will be a super bonus!

Until then, remember to greet the taxi drivers first when you get into their cars. You will leave a good impression about yourself :)

6th October 2008

I can't wait for this date to come.
memang it's " ideas for life" :)

!@#$%^

Nothing to add here. I'm not motivated to blog for now.

I'm already starting to be overwhelmed with more things at hand.

1. preparing the feedback on Vincent's lesson during last leaders meeting - hadn't got much time to sit down properly to reflect entirely on the message and the deepest thoughts within me.
2. preparing thoughts and directions for my ministry and working together in a more better way with my co-partner, Hannah - another 4 more months to go to make godly changes.
3. preparing my heart for the last high month in intense evangelism.
4. house under renovation - I hadn't got my room ready yet and I've been sleeping on the sofa in the living room, which really make me cranky through the night (I miss my bed...)
5. preparing for Robert and Chung Yi's wedding day - the bachelor nite first and then the groomsmen's clothing.
6. my personal walk with God have been quite draggy at this moment - I need a personal space to sit down and think and reflect. Hope my room can be ready by next week. Meanwhile, I still do my best not to listen to the language of the devil, ie. compromise.
7. will be going down to Taiping on the Merdeka eve to continue the Bible study with Uncle - he is excited and grateful about it :) My hope is still high to see my family members and relatives to come know God.
8. building and strengthening friendship with sisters seems a difficult task - I don't want to create favoritisms. Someone care to give me a proper and spiritual advices, please?
9. my tummy still not losing much - I have to eat lesser rice and control my diet. I've been quite lazy to do proper sit up and skipping rope to reach the ideal physique.
10. my 7th spiritual birthday is approaching - 29th September. Still no idea what to do on that day. But definitely I'm taking this moment to work on my personal characters and to have a breakthrough so that I can celebrate my 7th anniversary with joy.

Bottom line: this week is a very challenging time for me and discouraged and burdened.
Another bottom line: no matter what, I still have to pull through it with the help of God and to be self-discplined in all undertaking.

In closing, let me close up with the following Scripture that is meaningful for me at the point of time.

1 Corinthians 9:24-27 (The call for self-discipline)
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize?
Run in such a way as to get the prize.
Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training.
They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.
Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air.
No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

Poor Baby...

My Baby was in hospital since last Saturday.
I'm starting to miss it...

Losing something dearest to me can make feel disconnected. I need it to get myself organized or else I will go about like a zombie - thoughtless and absent-minded.

Hope I can greet it back by this week as soon as possible.

Decisions... Decisions...

To be honest, I hate making decisions; especially a big one.
Decision is like a see-saw to me. One weight is pulled down by the force of the gravity will elevate the other end which carries a lighter weight.

In our everyday life, we have to face up and even own up to many decisions that required our attentions.
Trivial things are like; in the morning, we have to decide to wake up early or later. Once we got up, we have to decide to bath or just rinse our face. Opening the wardrobe, we need to decide what to wear. Well, I could go on and keep mentioning all of it. But these are trivial everyday matter.

What really matter in decision making is what it takes to make the right choice.
Making the right choice is hard. We need to always gauge the consequences of all the possibilities. Sometime it can be something which make people happy. Other can be utterly disappointed. What a dilemma...

Until then... I shall take it with grace and with optimistism as I could.
And to make it wiser, advices and warnings are bountiful. At least, at the end of the day, I will not feel guilty for whichever decision have made.

In closing, it is important to hear what the Bible have to say when about to make decision.

Proverbs 15:21-23
Folly delights a man who lacks judgment,
but a man of understanding keeps a straight course.
Plans fail for lack of counsel,
but with many advisers they succeed.
A man finds joy in giving an apt reply—
and how good is a timely word!

Direction

Psalms 119:105
"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path." (KJV)

Ever since i got Baby (pardon me, it's my PDA), I get to play with its GPS function. It's a very useful feature because it really guided my friend and I whenever we traveled to unfamiliar places. Its navigational capabilities never failed to amaze me as it shows the right direction towards the designated destination.

I just picked up a new quiet time series last night. It's a book called "Knowing God", prepard by John Louis. Reading it under the table light, I tried to read it as much as I could as my eyes getting more sleepy. Despite of that, I knew deep down in my heart... I really yearned to know God more, even more.

I know many times I have sinned, but I can't help to acknowledged that many of of my worst sin is failing to understand God is truly a Being, and not a concept.
For the past couples of weeks, the attitude of my heart was revealed whenever I pray... I knew that somehow, there is something lacked there.

Feeling indifferent? Definitely...
Feeling inadequate? Definitely too...

So I decided to take this 10 days challenge to get back my heart for God... even so ever having the full understanding and accompanied by feeling of closeness to the Almight God.

I will be posting up here and there of what I will discover.
So for you, readers, if you happened to be in the same state as I do, do contact me personally so that I can pray for you. I will be ever so glad if there is at least one person can sit in the same boat with me.

Until then... next time :)

I Love To Tell The Story

"I Love To Tell The Story"
By Alan Jackson

I love to tell the story
Of unseen things above,
Of Jesus and his glory,
Of Jesus and his love.
I love to tell the story,
Because I know 'tis true;
It satisfies my longings
As nothing else can do.

[Refrain:]
I love to tell the story,
'twill be my theme in glory,
To tell the old, old story
Of Jesus and his love.

I love to tell the story,
For those who know it best
Seem hungering and thirsting
To hear it like the rest.
And when, in scenes of glory,
I sing the new, new song,
'twill be the old, old story
That I have loved so long.
[Refrain]

This is hymn is one of my favorite song and it's sang beautifully by Alan Jackson.
This hymn was written by Arabella Katherine Hankey back in the early 19th century. This simple song reflected alot on the poem which she wrote to dedicate her love for Jesus.

I was introduced to this song by my dad when I went back to Brunei for a week break last May. He was supposingly to lead a simple worship and singing on that particular Sunday and he decided to sing this song. I remembered very vividly as he went to grab his guitar, put on his reading glass, and strummed the strings to the tune of his hum. Wow... unbelievable! The music and the lyric is so beautifully matched!
I hope you too would enjoy hearing and watching this simple clip.
As you listen, I want to encourage you to reflect upon those many great great stories of Jesus done for many of us.

Enjoy :)

Baby

Actually, it's a HTC Cruise - a PDA phone.
I decided to name it "Baby" the moment I got hold of it.

So what's so cool about this gadget?
Honestly speaking, I am not really a hardcore gadget guy. It's just something that I must invest on it and it's a need.

It costs me almost RM2K, but it's still worth it because of many useful functions and uses.

Aside from the cost of this device, this device is really pretty when you see it. The main features are :
GPS - hooray! Now I won't get lost in a massive road of KL. And I won't be duped by some cunning taxi drivers who often take a longer route in order to squeeze out my wallet.
WiFi - most laptops are heavy and lugging it along can be such a hassle. With this PDA, I can just carry it easily and simply order a hot chocolate milk drink from Starbuck and then I can online using its free WiFi connection.
3G - Sigh... I'm using a DiGi prepaid line actually and 3G is not supported yet.
EDGE - Oh... at least, I can still use this feature to online whenever got emergency.
Faster processor - at 400Mhz, it's pretty fast for such a small device.
Well, there are more.. but lazy to type it.

But overall, HTC Cruise is really a good device :)

I really marvel at how technology nowadays can really change the lifestyle of people.
I think technology really helps to bridge people whether they may be friends or strangers. It's a marvel to live in this 21st century :)

Durian! Durian! Durian!

Durian - the king of the fruits!

It's the durian season once again! Millions of people in Malaysia here will throng themselves amongs the orchards, supermarkets, or even at the stalls located at the road sides.

You will either love it or hate it.

***addition***
Sorry folks for the short post. My mind really went blank what I should type it here about durian. Honestly durian is not really my cup of tea. But I still enjoy eating it, especially together with friends and family. Do you realize that eating durian is always a a social gathering? Everyone sit around the durians and slurp and gooble up the fruits. And if you notice, you will hear alot of sound effects - "slurrp...", "pui-tui!", "nggmmm...", "haaahh... (exhaling the breath)", etc.
All of these really make up what make it interesting for social gatherings.
Have fun tis' season of durian-ing!

What is Joy?

Hmm...
I need time to think about it.
Plenty of time, actually.

Anyone care to help me out?
You may feel free to voice out by typing it in the comment box.

***addition***

Joy is when knowing God is in control of your life.

Joy is when people inspired you what God have done in their lives.

Joy is when people really show their love and care for you when you needed it the most at a point of your life.

Joy is what you will experience when things went wrong, but at the later end, it turns out something good.

Joy can be seems quite rare, but it is in everyday of our lives.

Joy is not about being happy alone. It meant to be shared.

So, readers... what else joy is to you?
I shall leave it the rest to you to put on your thinking cap and feel free to add to the comment below.

Have a joyful day :)

Cooking Pan No-Jutsu!

Finally I bought a new cooking pan! :)
Thousand of thoughts now flood in my mind as I imagine what I am going to do with it. I took the liberty to cook my own lunch since I was on leave from my work. The wall clock is now ticking towards the lunch hour, as my stomach starting to make noise. It's really blessed to be a man being prompted by sheer hunger and even more blessed that cooking is his specialty :P

While humming "Amapola", I took out one egg, one tempura fish fillet and two hashbrowns from the fridge and set aside ready to be cook. I took out the new cooking pan and take some time to read the instruction. I know most people don't do that, instead they just rip open the product and start using it immediately and to their final horror, things can turn out more harm than good. Hmm... reading the instruction helps alot. It said here, that you can only use your hands to wash the pan with little detergent, so that the Teflon coating will last longer. I washed it with water and with my bare hands and wipe it dry with a kitchen towel.

Tik tak! OK, the fire started already :)
Pour the cooking oil... and wait for the oil to heat up and spread evenly across the pan. Crack the egg and perform the sunny-side-up-no-jutsu! Oooh... the smell of the cooked egg is delicious without even tasting it! (Are you drooling already?)

The next 'jutsu' will be the hashbrowns - gotta add more oil.
Psssshh... Ouch! Ouch! Those hot oil starting to splash onto my feet. Adoi...
OK, this side up done. OK, next side up. OK, done. Set aside on the kitchen tissue towel to absorb the excess oil.

OK, the final 'jutsu' called the Ala-Fillet-Fish-No-Jutsu! This is more Japanized coz you see, this fish fillet is coated with tempura! Hai! Fry! Flip! Fry! Flip! Swoop! Done!

Aah... what a glorious lunch! To compensate with all these oil riched foodie, I decide to complement it with a wholemeal bread :) It turns out pretty delicious and satisfying in the end after all the hard work :)

"God, thank you for the food and be grateful about it. Amen". OK, time to chomp!
Ngam-ngam-ngam... slurp-slurp-slurp... ngam-ngam-ngam...

Just tagging myself

ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT???
Left elbow. Got involved in a car accident back in early 2000.

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW???
A bed to sleep on.

WHAT DO YOU MISS???
My campus days. So much of assignments. So much of classes to attend. Yet, so much of fun!

WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION???
The bonds which I share with people who are close to me.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL???
The smell of rain.

DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC???
It defines as anxiety disorder which sparks the fear of being inside an enclosed place, like lift. No, I don't have this phobia.

DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK???
Not really. I just couln't see anything at all.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME???
None. Plan to get one cologne soon.

COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS???
Energy drinks, especially Milo!

IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE???
Kettle's Potato Chips! *droool...*

WHO IS THE LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU MAD???
Not telling. It's slanderous to mention the name.

DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE???
Yes. 2 main Chinese dialects. Malaysian Malay and bit of Indonesia Malay. A bit of Tagalog and Japanese.

WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU???
By being expressive and telling them face to face.

SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
7! It's either can be my lucky number or unlucky one.

BLONDES OR BRUNETTES???
I prefer natural.

WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN???
Used to. But now most of the time, people will ring me up.

HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF YOUR COUNTRY???
Yup. Many times.

WHERE WERE YOU BORN???
Taiping. A place is called Peace when the 2 triad societies decided not to wage war against each other. It's a humble small town.

FIRST JOB???
Wash toilets - at home-lah!

WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST???
My smile? I'm not sure.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL???
Doesn't really matter to me.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY???
Anything. I'm usually contented with anything.

HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT???
Well, I would like to have 3 kids in the future.

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE???
Yup, a great guy in the Bible :)

DO YOU WISH ON STARS???
Nope. Never done that.

WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE???
My thumb. It's very handy :)

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING???
No, I don't really like.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT???
Fish, I prefer it nowadays.

ANY BAD HABITS???
Champion in being cranky. Dig nose in public, lest I tried hard to conceal it.

WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF???
None. I'm pride myself in collecting movies :)

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU???
Yup! I have found another 'twin'.

WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME???
Brunei :)

DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY???
Usually I'm more incline to trust others. You can call me naive if you want to.

WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD???
Remoto-controlled car!

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT???
Nope. Never been in a rock concert before.

DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF???
If it's a new and branded shoe, I will do it.

THING YOU ATE???
French toast.

SIBLINGS???
3 wonderful siblings :)

YOU LIKE SUSHI???
Yup! I used to have it for dinner every Monday.

ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT???
Nope :)

Just tagging myself... Coz I have nothing better else to do here.

A: "Hey, what are you doing?" B: "sudoku-ing..."

Any of you enjoy playing sudoku? I know some hates it. I know some loves it. And I know some crazy about it.

My dear friend, Corrinne, loves it alot. She plays whenever she can find time to do so. Chatting with her online is no-no whenever she's glued to it. She will most probabyly give a very short reply. That's how she loves it so much.

To me, sudoku is very mind boggling for my brain. I just couldn't get the correct combination of numbers ranged from 1 to 9. Maybe I'm poor at Math since young. I used to count using my fingers for I must see. If I'm embarassed to count using my fingers, I would take out some "biji saga" - those bright red color seed from an Angsana tree. Its bright color will keep me entertained and full of attention. Maybe next time, I will use the "biji saga" to play sudoku. How is it so? You go figure-lah!

From "never mind-lah" to "Aha"!

It's very tiring and demotivating whenever I want to blog. First, I have to think what to say. Second, I have to check on my grammar as I type. Third, I am very particular whenever I type in English. Fourth, I never passed my English when I took the GCE 'O' Level. Fifth, I vowed to improve the words and the grammar usage whenever I could - of course, others may feel free to correct it for me.

My dear best friend, Evelyn is very encouraging as I shared my woes in typing blog. The plain message I got from her is - be original.

Aha! Eureka! Why didn't I think of it earlier? Why am I so consumed by all the reasons from 1st to 5th? Nay... it's time to show my originality in typing/writing, lest the whole world can criticized it to their hearts content!

Ah... I feel elated and relaxed after typing this out :)

4:11pm

Tuesday, 4:11pm.
No, nothing significant about the time. I just couldn't think of a proper title for this blog. I have been away from this blog since early January this year. The reason? Well, there are plenty, and plenty enough to be an excuse - lazy-lah, no Internet at home-lah, dunno what to write-lah, can't think of anything-lah, etc.

Last weekend was a great time of learning about faith. In the Christian world, you will get the hear the message of faith throughout the years, decades, and even most in the coming centuries. Had it become the central topic of our Christian lives for such long? Is there an end to this topic? I think, the answer is a no. Because the Bible holds a never ending story when it talks about faith. It's very exhaustive when you keep thinking about it. But the human mind can never able to comprehend the amount of faith that we need to place in our lives. We see it. We hear it. We feel it. We taste it. And we touch it. Faith is everywhere and it encompasses the very nature of God for men to go through.

I think faith generally can be found anywhere, everywhere, anybody, everybody, anytime and every time. It's just so amazing when I realized that God is still often amazed by human's faith. Faith must be something really keep God amused and entertain, or in an encouraging word - it inspired Him.

Ah...

Mind boggling-eh, my readers?
I guess I wanna stop typing this for now. I will come back to type more of it once when my mind made it up. Until then... ta!

Real

NEO: This-- This isn't real?

MORPHEUS: What is real? How do you define real? If you're talking about what you feel, taste, smell, or see, then real is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain.

(excerpts from The Matrix, 1999)

*HAHAHA* I Wanna Laugh At Myself!

Daniel as *Biggie Nosey*


Daniel as *Nutty Professor*


Daniel as *Tree Trunk*


Daniel as "Alien Heado"


Daniel as *Toad Mouthie*


Daniel as *Fatso Face*


Daniel as *Jackie Chan Nosey*

A Faint Resonance

Hilo there!

I am back! Where have I been? Wondering around the world. My world, I mean.
Well, basically I have been just pure lazy to type something in this blog, like I have been leaving it for decades!
Besides being just pure lazy, I have been caught up with other things like my job and in my minstry tasks. This month is really a high month both in my job and in my role in church. I hardly can contemplate between those two because both are equally important as well.

However, this month I really fret and complained alot in my job. 'Coz I have to work till very very late night close to midnight! One time, I worked till the next morning until my head really cannot make a turn >< *adoi...* really really cramped and painful. Moreover, when my bed misses me alot. Funny, I still get all those cramped neck coz I don't really have a pillow. Anyway, I will surely source around for one good pillow to lay my tired heavy head.

As for the ministry, I really feel great and excited to see my fellow Christian brothers and sisters coming out from their comfort zones and actively and tirelessly sharing our faith! Our church have been holding so strongly in reaching out to people through street evangelism and I am truly proud of what we are doing! There's no other churches which I have been through or in mind would do that in KL alone.
The notion and the sensation of seeing my fellow Christians doing this is truly amazing! We have gotten alot of contacts as in the form of mobile numbers, business cards, emails and various correspondence. With all these contacts, we made alot of follow up calls and invite many to join us for a minum and makan and getting to know them and sharing the purpose in life from the Bible :)

This month, I truly salute alot of people in doing this cause for the seeking and saving the lost as commanded and exampled by our Lord Jesus :) To God be the glory, amen!