Satisfied and gearing up

Spoke and share with the brothers on the mission of seeking and saving the lost.

We shall now gear up to share our faith with eagerness. We also need God to enable us to be bold and courageous just like the disciples of Jesus in the first century time.

We need to learn to do hard things now and expect one another to grow away from our comfort level and towards goals as we progress.

The plan have been laid. Every possible practical also been laid. The next thing to do will be our actions from our hearts, minds and souls.

I'm Daniel, I'm a disciple.

Mini Blogger

I finally manage to install this Blogger for Android :) hopefully this time round I can post anything in convenience

it was like a 'Mafia' game

"OK, let's play Mafia! And now everyone go to sleep."

"Go to sleep, all of you..."

"Mafia, mafia... wake up. Who do you want to kill?"

"OK, mafia... please go to sleep"

Blah... Blah...

"OK, everyon wake up!"

"It's a horrible night... someone died!"

Familiar with game?

Hahaha :D

Now I am going to share with you an unforgettable story that has happened during my trip to KK.

Saturday afternoon.

We got to know that our flight to KK has been delayed for an hour.

But still we eagerly anticipate and willing to wait more longer at McD, killing time by chit-chatting and having meal together.

Finally, it's time to check in our luggages. But the queue was so long, making me pretty irritated by AirAsia's management... "mastaka neh..."

Anyways, we finally boarded the plane and it took off in no times. The flight was pretty rough... lots of turbelances up there. The plane kept shooking up and down, side to side. Scary! And the worst of all, there was drop descent of about 3 to 5 seconds, and it sure makes our hearts racing with sweat and fear and wondering what could be worse.

Nevertheless, it was a total relief when we finally touched down in KK at about 10:30pm.

After retrieving all of our luggages, we walked out to meet Joedee, our tour guide, who waited us outside the arrival hall. And we quickly load up the vans and some followed into his car as well, heading to the hotel for a rest and to get our tummies filled.

The next day after the communion...

It was 10:30am...

The ground was filled with feets shuffling here and there.

Inaudible noise filled the situation.

It was pretty tense.

A woman kept nodding, while cowering her mouth to the cellphone so that she could speak louder.

And the news just arrived. It was a horrible day... someone died!

Apparently, Joedee has committed suicide by inhaling carbon monoxide in his car and in front of his church.

When we recieved the news, most of us couldn't believe it and still in doubt that there could be some foul play along this time. Some of us thought that he just set this up as a ploy to escape himself with the money. Some of us were laughing our heart out over the news because we do not know how to react to it. But alas... later did we know, it seems to dawn on us that the news was pretty very much genuine. We also heard about Joedee's family who went to the police station to make a death report.

After that, we decided to change our plans to something else since we are not even allowed to climb up to the KK mountain. But at least we managed to rent two vans to travel up to Mesilau in the highlands. We had a short and refreshing hike there and managed to marvel at the mountain of Kinabalu. It was a marvelous sight! We took alot of pictures and did alot of poses here and there.

As the evening approaches, we were treated with a sumptous feast of steamboat. But the funny thing is, both Kim Seng and Vinnes became our food rationer. They are pretty good in controlling the food intakes of the brothers. *Hahaha! We also had a game and a time of sharing our thoughts and feelings about the whole trip with everyone, which kinda refreshing in spite of the cold temperature.

The next morning, we woke up after a cold night of sleeping, was really good too. We woke up by the smell of the eggs frying in the kitchen. Some of us were pretty amused by the sight of three brothers who helped to cook the eggs together. Later on, we washed up and did our quiet time and had a morning prayer together while marveling at the sight of the Kinabalu mountain and its terrain. Since the smell of the breakfast got stronger and stronger and we couldn't resisted the hungers triggered by the wonderful smell, we quickly ended our prayer much shorter. . .

Later on, we went to visit the cow farm. We took alot of pictures there and even try to get closer to the cows. We also tasted the fresh milk as well, quite a different taste. Huh, but guess what happen after that? As we about to leave the farm, we ended up having have to pay RM3 per entry per person. Such a cunning marketing scheme...

Anways, we drove back to the city, get back our luggages and head off to the airport. Sooner... we said and wished everyone a goodbye and had a smooth flight back to KK.

P/S: I won't be able to post up any photos here, but you can check it out in Facebook's photo albums. Enjoy!

need a name

i finally got my netbook!

well at the time of writing, i've been using it for 9 days now.

i'm very happy with it. 

it's small and light and cute!

i haven't found a suitable name of this new baby. any thoughts?

blink

the den here is pretty dark.

i know some of you have been anticipating when will i start to blog again.

honestly, i can't be bothered to do it. perhaps i need a constant reminder from people, telling me "hey kakibulu, what happen to your blog ah? so silence wan..."

only i will start the engine to write.

there was a rusty sound, you know...

my fingers just wouldn't budge to type - except for work related things.

Hmm.. what should i write here?

I think i need to comment that my Internet speed here is pretty slow.

It became slow since last week because our household Internet usage have violated the broadband's Fair Usage Policy. however, the speed will catch up and go back to the normal speed starting 1st April. well, let's hope the broadband service will not play a trick on that day.

April is coming soon.

too many things to do and to accomplish.

first, this month is the Bibletalk month where we want to take the chance to invite friends to join us and to know God. 

next, the upcoming SEA Conference in Singapore in the 2nd week. everybody can't seems to wait for it. some opted to go there by planes, cars, buses and trains. i wonder if there anyone going there by boats?

April also will be the month to set up more Bible studies. i have to really move myself and my group to focus in making God knowns to others. i don't want another fruitless results. i really hope to see fruitful ones. 

ah... also i have been eyeing on a particular netbook - the MSI Wind. can't wait to get it soon :)

I have planned to get a new one though as my current laptop of 5 years kept giving me trouble. i know it's going to die anytime.

28

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to myself

happy birthday to me

anyone want to sing along with me?

What a CNY~

25/01

:430am

Start the early morning journey back to Taiping.

Turn on some CNY music on the way back.

Trying to keep my eyes open wide while traveling. Basically just to help my cousin to stay alert as she drove.

:630am

I saw the sign board - Bidor.

Guess what? Nice "wu kok" is over there.

So we all decided to pull over there to have our yummy breakfast!

But alas, we got lost along the way and couldn't find the restaurant. It was still pretty dark and I hardly can spot the buildings along the way. Luckily we made a U-turn and found back the restaurant.

Man... we were all tired and hungry.

Aiks... mana tau the "wu kok" is only ready after 7am? Sigh... so wait lah and order something else.

:730am

Continue our trip back to Taiping again. We reached in an hour time.

:840am

Crash landing into my grandma's room. I realised that she'd installed an aircon in her old wooden house. So tired and sleepy and couldn't be care less... I slept through till 11 something.

:11+am

Grandma prepared noodle for me, despite my declination. The noodle tasted abit weird, but I finished it anyways.

:1pm

finally it's time to savor my grandpa's infamous "Kou Youk"!

Ooh... it tasted soooooooo goooooooood!!!!!!!!

The flavor is soooooooo goooooooood!!!!!!!!!

He make about 30 bowls of it, which the 10 he sold to others while he kept 20 to serve the remaining guests who would come to our house for lunch.

Next day, my aunts and I learned how to cook the "Kou Youk" under the supervision of my grandpa. Quite a task to prepare this meal but it's worth the work! However i accidentally cut 2 of my fingers... gosh... quite deep and bled alot.

Aunts kept complaining that my grandpa loves to sharpen all the knife. Yeap! It's really sharp that I can easily cut the tough meat with much ease :)

Thank God that my fingers still intact >< hehe~

Grandpa was so quick to tend to my injuries. He quickly applied lotion and bandage to my wound. Very grateful to him :)

The next day, I found myself not really having much of an appetite to eat coz i felt my tummy really bloated. I wonder why... which I later found out that I kena food poisoning... so i really had to go to the toilet more than 8 times.

Argh... there goes all my yummy foods!!!

Finally come back to KL. see doctor. pujuk the doctor to give me a medical leave. paid for the ubat. went back home to rest. ate instant noodle from the cup. went online to check mails and catch up buddies online. take ubat and rehydrate my body. in the middle of the night, I had to attend to my bigger nature call 2 times... sigh.......

Now... out of boredom... i type tihs post. Dunno what else want to do, besides waiting for my food to come home. I called Mike to help me to buy some bread and Milo packetes coz I have been famishing today...

Meanwhile, as for you readers, do eat properly so that you can enjoy more foods. don't end up like me ya.

Take care :)

Please wait

In case you are looking for something

Or expecting something,

Please wait.

Wait patiently.

Sooner I will post up something which is outdated.

The outdated post will be entitled, "8".

This post is harder to put up 

Coz alot of thinking are required

And alot of words have to be carefully selected.

Sigh.. I'm so perfectionist.

Forgive me...

Sorry...

Stuck!

Apparently... I'm stuck with words.

Actually I'm stuck in blogging. 

Sometimes I don't know what sort of words to express out.

Maybe I should draw instead.

But not now...

Or maybe I should type it like a poem instead also.

But not now either...

See?

I'm stuck.

Called me indecisive, if you wish.

But I'm stuck.

Because I seek perfection.

That is one true weakness about me.

However, I must grow to learn to accept failures and imperfection.

After all, I am not perfect either.

I must have been hard on many people all these while.

With this in mind, I seek for your forgiveness from you all if I had acted such manner to you.

Sorry.

Sorry.

So next year, I shall be better in accepting weaknesses.

It will be one of my new year resolution.

:)

How To Raise A Friend Up?

It takes patience in everything for something good to happen. It is not easy at all when obstacles seems so hard to cross over. Like any soldier who underwent heavy trainings, they have to pull their whole limbs with sheer willpower and determination to make it through... and raising a friend who is down is also no easy task.

When I was still a boy, I hated Maths so much. Hated to point that I dared to fail it, and of course a long cane is awaiting there for me. Ouch! Those pains were so painful but still bearable because of my stubborness. Both of my parents used to quiz me about Maths and if I can't able to answer it correctly, their nerves sure get fire. It's just ME - I can't seems to comprehend those equations, even a simple fraction! So Maths is my biggest obstacle during my early schooling days. 

On that year in 1996, it was the year that everyone have to sit for a national exam. And I remember I kept telling myself so negatively that I am not going to make it. Maths is so so hard. My brain just can't proccess it. Numbers. Crunching numbers really scared me off. Multiplication. Division. Algebra. All of these, my mind just can't hold it. Because of my weakness in this subject, my parents spent alot of their hard earn money on tuitions. Still, it doesn't help at all. And in the end, I got more scolding from my teacher. Sigh... I became very discouraged and such an embarassement to others and to myself.

One day as the months approaching to the end of the year, my good old friend who was much a senior offered a free tuition to me. In return, he will get to come to my house and of course, get a nice dinner from my mom's cooking. I remembered those days we prayed to God first before the beginning of each lesson. He kept thanking God at the end of every lesson that after teaching me. Never once he scolded me. Never once he sneered at me. Never once his face showed frustration. Never once he gritted his teeth. Never once. All he gave me is his patience, his encouragement and his love. My confidence grew from there. He showed me how to do real Maths. He gave me tips on how to read the questions properly and to answer it smartly. In the end, he ignites my mind. A small little spark started from there and my mind went wild like a big fire. Do you know how difficult it is to start a fire with a small spark? I tell you, it takes sheer patience and determination. Finally, I scored a high distinction in my Maths for the first time in my entire life! My score was exceptional - 98% (hey, I'm not boasting, ok?)

So how did I overcome it? No... it's not me, actually. It was my dear old good friend. He is my buddy. He was the one who believe in me that I can do it. He was the one who put faith in me that I can cross over this obstacle. He was the one who gave me strength. He was the one who gather other people around me and gave me further supports. And he was the one who kept praying and thanking to God to help me to make it through. God has intended for him to be in my life. God is the mastermind of everything for you and I, your life and my life, everything under the sun.

So... how to raise a friend up? You will need another friend. Friend who offered his/her heart and a listening ear. Friend who offered his/her prayers and keep thanking God that the fallen one will rise up again. Friend who will love despite the odds. And ultimately, a friend who believes and be there for you in whatever circumstances, even have to be persistent!

“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!” Ecclesiastes 4:8-10

Massive War

Hardly can talk excitedly in the midweek.

Hardly can talk to the group when meeting with all the brothers.

Hardly can catch breathe last night.

Water and toilet accompanied me for the whole night and I didn't manage to catch a wink.

SMSed to my manager and project leader.

But I got more replys from my manager, who kept asking how am I.

I know he desperately need me to work. But how to work properly when I am so exhausted, lest I can't even talk much now?

The mucuos is terrible... 

Viruses and white blood cells is having a massive war.

May the white blood cells win, otherwise better be fast!

Nose also very stuffy and couldn't breathe that so well.

Alas, since I am so sick today

I better make full use of the day to rest

And to prepare few things in mind for the upcoming events.

Until then... I  better make a move first

To say 'hello' to the doctor...

What's up with you?

Sudah... maafkan aku... segala salahku 

Dan bila kau tetap bisu ungkapkan salahmu 

Dan aku... sifatku, dan aku khilafku... 

Dan aku... cintaku, dan aku rinduku... 

Sudah... lupakan semua... segala berubah 

Dan kita terlupa... dan kita terluka 

Dan aku... sifatku, dan aku khilafku... 

Dan aku... cintaku, dan aku rinduku... 

Reff : 

Kutanya malam... dapatkah kau lihatnya 

Perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan 

Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah 

Ada apa denganmu... 

Oh hanya malam... 

Dapat meleburkan segala rasa 

Yang tak terungkapkan 

Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah 

Ada apa denganmu... 

By: Peter Pan

Comments

Just wanna share my thought for today...

Lately I realised that my blog received not much of comments. I actually love to read comments from you guys. I love the feedbacks, so at least I know that you have put the effort to read my post.

To be honest, comments really do boost me up to write up more posts in my blog. It is always encouraging to know that there are people actually reading and reflecting on what is mentioned in the blog. It is fun to see how people respond also and you might get to see other's perspective in the way how they look at life :)

OK lah... enough of my rambling. I wanna sleep now. I haven't been sleeping much lately. I can now relate better to those who are sleep deprived now. Take care, and goodnight...

First Day in Panasonic!

Wow... 

I finally landed in my first ever multi-national company. I have always dream of working in one big big company. And so amazingly, I got it! So, is it by my effort? No... not really. Only part of it. But first of all, give thanks and all glory to God for blessing me and making this dream comes true. And not to forget to extend my thanks to Grace for her untiring time for arranging me to get interview in Panasonic and even willing to fetch George and me there :)

Guess what? This morning I woke up very late for my first day of working!!! So late that I have to take a cab that costs me RM50 to get to Cyberjaya :( the moment I paid up the fare, I felt truly foolish at myself. Well... this is the consequences for sleeping late and waking up late... Ah, so regretted!

Anyways, I was greeted by few Panasonic geeks and they made my day better :) Most of them were shy to approach me. So I decide to make the initial approach to walk around and introduce myself and had a short talk with them. Malaysian Chinese, Vietnamese, Indian, Pakistani, Malays, even mixed bloods... wow... memang multi-national company :D

Afterward, I was introduced to a girl that almost look like Sun Yan Zi! In my heart, I almost wanted to call up Je Wei and told him that I met Sun Yan Zi :P HEHEHE! She's so nice and started to introduce to me more of her gang. And we went for lunch together :) Or am I having lunch with a superstar? HAHAHA :P

However, most of the time I am doing in the office is just reading and reading and reading. No... I'm not reading online news or articles or blogs or whatever on the Net. I have to force myself to read up their previous projects. To be honest, it's really bored for my eyes until I almost dozed off several times. Oh yea... the policy of the company is that we are not allowed to go chat online like MSN and Googletalk :( SO SAD... Actually I can access it, but I kept looking around but none of the Panasonic geeks surfing the Net. All of them doing their works very seriously. Wow... in my heart, I already felt so struggle because I am so used to have all these access in my previous jobs. So now... I am taking this new challenge to restrain myself and not be tempted to do unproductive things during office hour. So since because of that, I don't think can access my personal emails, chat, or do research, etc. I think I better apply for an Internet line at home liao... SIGH... What a pain.

All in all... working for Panasonic is a bitter sweet :) but I guess I have to learn to take up to this new challenge in working for this company. Definitely, I will always continue to glorify God in this new job so that I can impact these geeks there. Do please do me a favor to remember to pray for me ya :D 

Until then... next time another blog :)

Disappointment

Disappointment is a horrible feeling, don't you think so? It's just somewhat or somehow things don't really goes as planned. Sure, the expectations will play most of the part in the plan too. However, despite the odds... you still have to made it up whether how you wanna feel after the disappointment settled.

Well, here are some of the things that got myself pretty disappointed about. Do bear in mind, I just wanna share out only and I have no intention to blame others or make others feel bad.

1. My Bibletalk group had a day trip to Bukit Melawati at Kuala Selangor last week Thursday during the Raya holiday. There was a pretty bad planning around there with the time management and many impromtu and unforseen things happenings that dampen the time of enjoyment together. Ended up causing most of us feel rushed and didn't have a quality time together as a group.

2. This coming Saturday is an encouragement day for my Bibletalk but some members in my group spaced out and they had other plans in mind. When they found out about it, they are like shifting the blame to me and expecting me to remind them. Of course, I will still need to accept my responsibility in reminding them ahead but I wish that they will take own personal responsibilities to check the schedule and adhere to the Bibletalk planning.

3. I can't get to meet my best friend from Brunei as she is not very flexible with her schedule as she's busy attending some seminars.. I intended to show her the place around here in KL and just want to have time to catch up our friendship. She will be flying back to Brunei this evening.

4. My small LED black torchlight is lost. Borrowed to a brother but he lost it somewhere, either in his car or at his house. The torchlight is very meaningful for me and I have been using it to navigate whenever I am in the dark. I hope someone would be able to find it.

5. There are more... of course, I won't want to share so much of it here since it's very personal for me :)

Sigh.. at the end of it, someone did encouraged me to look at the bright side. She asked me what are the good things I see from the whole situation and my answers are:

1. Hmm.. well, I got few people ask me out of concern what I am disappointed about, and

2. Somehow, I need to learn to take it easy and cheer myself up despite the odds or whatever negative outcomes. It sure will make some differences :)

Well... disappointment is still part of our lives. It sure can make us all dull. But with the help of God and by making right decisions and by looking at the sunny side, it's not so bad after all :)

what friends are for?

I am listening to song called "That's what friends are for " by Dionne Warwick.

It's a good song about friendship and this is song is dedicated to you all reading this post.

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

[Chorus]
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came in loving me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
The words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

I shall treasure all friendships that I have.

Whether it is the past or the present, all of them are important to me.

lost

I lost something precious given to me.

A mini torchlight :(

I need its light, for I won't be able to see in the dark well.

It's black in color.

Small and lightweight.

It uses LED bulb.

Last location was in SS2 Brothers House.

If you find it, please inform and return to me.

Thank you very much.

七

Today is my 7th spiritual birthday!

My prayer:

God, thank you so much for walking with me for 7 good years :)

O Lord, You have brought me out from the pit of darkness and have brought forth the light of truth and salvation into my life. My God, I can never thank you enough for how much You have done in my life. O God, You are awesome, mighty, wonderful and everlasting! Amen :) 

2001 is the year that I always remember. It was that year when my life turning point here began.

So for a start, a brief history of me:

I was born and raised in Christian family.

I have attended 2 different kinds of denomination, namely the Charismatic and the Baptist.

I was baptized in a Baptist church in 1997. Prior before the baptism, I have to attend the baptism class every Sunday. And honestly speaking, I dreaded it the most because I have to wake up early in the morning to attend church.

At home, most of the night our family will have a devotion together and we will revert back to the Charismatic practices. It's quite good in a way because it livens up the atmosphere during a worship together as a family. I still enjoyed those moments with my family as we worshiped together. My dad would be playing his guitar and lead the worship..

Despite of all the hype of worshiping which can bring myself closer to God, I still find myself alone in my faith. Although every week I attended youth night or Sunday service to listen to the sermons, I still find my faith and love for God is not genuine. I merely do it to please others and to hear them praising me. Man... I was indeed very prideful! In addition, I am usually a timid person and often shy away from people. In short, I am good at masking and pretending.

However, each time the more I pretended, I felt cheated towards other but also to myself. I couldn't bring myself to think or to confess what kind of person I am. But due to my pride, I still continue to live this part of brokeness in me. Sometimes there were times I came to a realization that I needed to change and be repentant of it, but I can hardly find the will in me to do so. Perhaps I couldn't really find the right support among my friends because we were too in the same ship - always talking craps and nonsense. In short, I am not a true follower of Jesus.

After finishing my GCE 'O' Level examination, I went to Miri to do my engineering course. Campus life was like a freedom for me because it's my first time to be away from my family. I could do anything I wanted. However I still keep myself to be holy and righteous by mixing around with some Christian friends to keep myself from becoming wild. I attended the church regurlarly every Sunday but again my life have never truly find the true purpose out of it. Sin easily crept in because I was so enticed by many things there. I had a relationship with a girl and my academic got worse and worse because I am not putting concentration to study. In the end, I failed so many papers - just because of a relationship. When my parents found out about it, my dad was so furious! The next day, I was kicked out from the house and told to look for a job on my own.

Eventually I found a job, working as a computer technician in Brunei. I worked for 3 months. During the 3 months stint of working, I stayed with all my colleagues as they were all foreigners from India, Pakistan and the Phillipines. My roommates were all from India. Each time I am with them, I am reminded of my own home and often feel saddened of the thought when my dad kicked me out from the house. I vowed to God that I will repent and not to repeat the same mistake ever again. It was a painful experience in my entire life. After 3 months later, my mom came to look for me and asked whether I would like to continue my study or not. I quickly agreed and I finally came to KL.

KL is another place, far more happening than in Miri. But the painful experiences reminded me again and I really kept to myself to give my best to study hard. My grades improved significantly and I continue to do better and better. I also began to choose my friends carefully so that I won't mix around with bad companies. Friends were good to me and were helpful whenever I needed help, especially those from China (and my Mandarin improved alot too).

September finally come. And the whole world witnessed the 9/11 incident. Many were so grief stricken. And I watched helplessly as the video footage showed 2 planes crashing the tower... It was Tuesday. On that particular Sunday, I accompanied my housemate to a church located at Sungai Wang. He actually asked me to accompany him because I am a church goer and he felt insecure going there alone. It was my first time to meet Je Wei who would be my "pokok". The church service was great but the worship is not to my liking. I am still very attached to band and playing musical instrument just like any Charismatic church do. After the service over, I saw so many people came to approached my friends and I. They were all so friendly and warm. I saw how they gave a side hugs to each other and I wonder why this church is so warm in their relationship with one another. I have never really seen such kind of church before.

One of the guy asked me whether I am interested to study the Bible and I quickly agreed, since I thought that I needed some spiritual guidance as I have not going to church regurlarly as per usual. My first study with Haris and Kien Woon was great in a McDonald at Leisure Mall. I was caught by surprise that they can be so boldy open the Bible in the public. And praying and reading the Scriptures. They taught me so many things which I have never taught before. So simple. So straight to the point. So warm. And indeed so touching as I feel God is telling me, "Daniel, it's time to get back on track. Come on."

One of the study that deeply impacted me is the discipleship study. The contrast of my own so called Christian live is totally different from the biblical ways. I felt alot of stings in my heart as I saw myself clearly how I am so far off away from being called a true follower of Jesus. The expectations is high but I know it's godly and God did this in such a manner we can place our faith in Him no matter how big the challenges it will be. After the study, I got back into the habit of doing my quiet time and prayer which I have not been doing for the longest time. For the first time in my life, my heart was so opened to understand the Bible and I started to appreciate God's word more and more. Eventually I learned about sin and started to repent of my sinful nature, repenting my pretentious heart, repenting all kind of immoralities and all that can stop me from having a relationship with God. It was my first time to confess my sin to people and I really felt refreshed about it at the end. I thanked God for the brothers to speak the truth in love to me and helped me to overcome it. The cross study even furthe convicted me as I saw the pain of Jesus going through the process to die for me and everyone. I have never been taught such crucifixation. My former churches taught very lightly and so shallow and I was never able to appreciate but simply just understand it intellectually. But that time around during the cross, I was even more deeply cut and grateful for someone who died for me.

And at the end, I couldn't wait to be baptised as I saw the biblical way to baptism. I knew I was baptized in my former church in 1997 but I disregard it now because the baptism was not valid due to my unrepented heart. So the day came... no, it's the night came as I waited at the swimming pool at Vincent's condominium. I waited till almost 10pm because there is one girl was counting the cost to be baptised on the same night with me too. Finally both Esther and I got baptized on that day which I will never forget for the rest of my life when I found God and got back with Him, September 29, 2001 :)

Those memories still lingering now. But now, I am celebrating this spiritual birthday with God alone. Esther no longer around with me as she have left. Of course, there is a part in my heart that I still feel saddened when she left but I know God will bring her back one day. 

For such a longest time, I am grateful to God and to the rest of the rest of the brothers and sisters who helped me along to grow maturely. I am still happy to see my "pokok" still faithful and serving God in the church. I am happy for many close friends that I have and I will always continue to treasure all of them. God have brought me so far from where I used to be. He has changed my life. He gave me confidence. He gave me strength when I needed the most. He was with me when I am down. He gave me assurance when I am at loss. He caused me to feel other when I see others in pain too. But most importantly, God have brought me out from the pit of darkness and gave me a new life :)

In closing, I can only imagine... 

I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...

I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!

I can only imagine. I can only imagine. 

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?

Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?

Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?

I can only imagine! I can only imagine! 

I can only imagine, when that day comes, when I find myself standing in the Son!

I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship You!

I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

How To Gain Weight?

Losing weight is what most people trying to achieve. It takes great effort to do it.
Gaining weight will be the opposite? No.... definitely not!
It takes great effort to put on weight as well :)

So today if you think you are losing weight too much, it's time to put on some back before other people see a walking skeleton :P
So i'm going to share some few tips on how to gain back your weight!

1. Diet is a number one thing. Diet will determine the shape and size of our body. To put on weight, you will need not to eat in excess. You simply just need to practise healthy eating habits. First, please makan your breakfast in the morning. It's very important because the food will provide you with more energy as you carry with your daily tasks. If you don't eat your breakfast, your body will end up burning the calories in your body and gradually you will start losing weight. Then have your lunch at a moderate amount so that you won't feel bloated and sleepy afterward. However if you happen to doze off to dreamy land, take heart :) Coz you will put on weight gradually. And when dinner time, try to eat it moderately as you need not to burn so much of calories. Save your tummy with some yummy snacks! Snacks taste better during the night :P But seriously, I don't encourage late night supper as it can cause adverse effect to your digestion.

2. Do exercise! Many people have wrong perception that exercise will lose weight even more. Well it is true to some extent but exercise can help to shape and tone your body. With proper diet, you can eventually gained a healthy weight.

3. Rest and sleep is very vital! Our body need to rest after all the hard day work. If you don't sleep or rest enough, your body will still keep burning more calories and fat. In addition, stress caused by a tired body can further lower your weight. A good sleep and rest constitute all the body cells to be functioned properly and work towards renewal as in repairing cells and restoring back new cells. It is advisable to sleep a minimum of 7 to 8 hours per day for adult, while more than 8 hours per day for children.

4. Take some health supplements. You will need the proper vitamins and minerals as they are the building block to give strength and health to your body. Though buying health supplement can be a costly investment, you can still opt to take more fruits and eat leaner meat. You can best stay away from unhealthy fat as it won't do any good to add the weight because it can affect your blood circulation. If you have some money to spare, do invest in reputable health supplement :)

5. Lastly, don't be shy shy to accept food from people who want to share with you. It will benefit you in getting back your weight :P

I hope you can follow thru this suggestion here in getting back your weight. After all, God did reminded us that our body must be healthy so that we can continue to glorify Him when we carry out His divine tasks. Surely, God won't want to see a living skeleton walking about - it's sure look weirdo!

Until then, happy makaning! Happy sleeping! And happy exercising!

Taxi! Taxi! Oi! Alah... Apa nih?

Thank God for cabs aka taxis! Nowsdays, you can find cabs easily around KL city. Sometimes they just whizz past you. Sometimes they would stop once you halt our your hands, and sometime lifting a finger will do the trick.

If it not for these taxi man, I wouldn't be able to get around for my work, meeting clients, meeting appointments, evangelisms and going to church. Otherwise, I will be late too...

However the most amusing thing about taxi is always the driver. You meet all kinds of driver. Here are the list below that I can think of so far:

1. Quiet-Quiet Type: this one would drive you to your destination without talking much. Just show him the directions if the driver is unsure. For this one, you can play with your phone, fiddle with your hair, looking around, etc.
2. Grumpy Old Men: this type can be quite grumpy. But rest assured, they won't scold at you. They just scold at the traffic jams, other cars cut the queues, sudden halt when a car quiickly slow down unexpectedly. Be prepare to hear their vulgar words, though.
3. Playing politicians: Most taxi drivers are very into the current Malaysia politics. Along the way, you can hear them vent out anger and frustration about the government and political situations. You still have to be prepare to hear all sort of vulgar words too which is even more drastic than the Grumpy Old Men.
4. Rare Species: Ah... imagine, a taxi driver greets you a "Good morning"! And then along the way, you can have a nice morning chat as he drives you to office. Ah... this one i called it a Rare Species. Have I meet one? Yes, once! Not only we had a good chat, but he further entertained me with his built-in video player. You literally can watch movie in his taxi :) If you get into this kind of taxi, you are in for a treat!
5. Dumpsite: This is one I detest the most. The entire car smells of cigarettes, sweat, and other funny weird weird smell. Sometimes it can be so unbearable that I have to wind down the windows to let out the stench smell! How can this kind of taxi drivers so unhygenic? May their business rot...

In conclusion, you will never know what kind of taxi drivers you might encounter. But pray tell that you can still reach your destination safely and cheaply if possible, despite the odds; otherwise meeting the Rare Species will be a super bonus!

Until then, remember to greet the taxi drivers first when you get into their cars. You will leave a good impression about yourself :)